Tomorrow I get to visit two more sites and organize our lodging facility. Everything was moved in for the most part and so it will be time to start making it into a camp atmosphere. I really feel God stirring in my heart to get ready to make an impact. He is carving a path ahead of me to connect with people and make room in their hearts for Him. I know it's not even just for their benefit of a relationship with Him, but it's also for me to take my faith to a new level in living out what I believe.
At training, during one of the morning devos, I was sitting on the floor and staring out at the window. We were in a gym and so the window had horizontal bars creeping halfway up. I stared at the rays that passed through onto the floor and saw the floor with patches of light and shadows. Then I looked higher and followed the light coming in through the open part of the window without bars and how the light easily filled the floor and expanded out across it. This window was me. This window was me this summer. God was telling me that this job will make me want to put up bars. I will be tired, stressed and frustrated. I will want to be angry and want to be selfish, but it is not the time for that. I can not let Satan put a wedge into my summer. I can not allow for bars to build up in me. This is not a summer for shadows to be cast upon Denver. This summer is for me to be open about God and to be open about who I am in God and for his light to shine openly and freely so that it can not be contained or downcast. As these thoughts were flooding my brain and I was speaking with God to let me rely on him and live in love and compassion, he put a song in my head that I could not stop singing.
Lord let your light, light of your face shine on us
That we may be saved
That we may have life
To find our way in the darkest night
Let your light shine on us
Lord let your grace, grace from your hand, fall on us
That we may be saved
That we may have life
To find our way in the darkest night
Let your light shine on us
Lord let your love, love with no end, come over us
That we may be saved
That we may have life
To find our way in the darkest night
Let your light shine on us
All throughout yesterday and today, while meeting with these different leaders and facilities and seeing where an impact could be made, whether it be a direct impact of working with children in the projects, or the elderly in a home, or indirectly in packaging food or cleaning a warehouse, I was praying that God continue to move my heart to work for Him and His Kingdom and that he could not be denied by this community. He placed a song on my heart this one is by Chris Tomlin.
You're the God of this City
You're the King of these people
You're the Lord of this nation
You are
You're the King of these people
You're the Lord of this nation
You are
You're the Light in this darkness
You're the Hope to the hopeless
You're the Peace to the restless
You are
You're the Hope to the hopeless
You're the Peace to the restless
You are
For greater things have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done in this City
Greater thing have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done in this City
And greater things are still to be done in this City
Greater thing have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done in this City
For greater things have yet to come
There is no one like our God
There is no one like our God
And greater things are still to be done in this City
Greater things have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done here
There is no one like our God
And greater things are still to be done in this City
Greater things have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done here
God is anxious and jealous for these hearts here and what an honor to be a part to soften them and focus them towards him. I really feel this summer is a part of my preparation for lifelong ministry.
...then the master must take him before the judges. He shall take him to the door or the doorpost and pierce his ear with an awl. Then he will be his servant for life.
Exodus 21:6
On a side note...this just popped into my mind... I do not find it coincidental, rather all of God's workings, that all of the partner organizations I am working with this summer are led by WOMEN!! How encouraging is that? I can be built up and learn from strong women working hard and also share my life with them. I think it's great. Not only a summer full of God's working, but daily fellowship and interaction with women in leadership. Praise God!
I will be praying against those bars as well Beth. I am so proud of you!! I can't wait to hear about the first week of camp.
ReplyDeleteBTW-don't forget to show a little love and compassion to those youth leaders that come through. They can be a pretty high maintenance bunch. ;-)
Bethany, I love reading your insights. Thanks for sharing your heart here.
ReplyDeleteit's gonna be great
ReplyDeleteand God's gonna be great in you
carry on sister and keep the updates comin